here's to another sleepless night

thanks to my overthinking, the 39g of sugar from my Arizona,
and the back to back kickass songs on this pandora station.


so chilled right now,
and for once in the longest time,
i actually want to be alone
and not just tonight, i need a moderately long break
from everyone and everything
i need everyone out of my business
and certainly out of my head
i just need me right now
god, it's been way too long


only a few days left here
and damn, i'm going to miss you, milwaukee
you've caused me quite some trouble,
your distance ended a few relationships,
and you're definately to blame for all the heartache,
bruises, and rough mornings
but all results from hella good times


why does there always gotta be a downfall?
honestly, college has poisoned me
i'm different once i pass the city borders
but i'm ready to turn it all around
i'm ready to get my shit together


maybe it was you who opened my eyes
i couldn't say
i couldn't know you any less
maybe you'll be my very own downfall
maybe i'll fall all over again


i'm waiting for someone to save me
and make this chaos become my old ways

i know i haven't met you yet,
but i know i need you
I need to love you, and i need to hear you
is that so wrong?
i hope we come close, and i'll fear you
and be afraid to tell you all that i've done
will you be done forgiving?
or will you look pass my pretending?


lord i'm so tired of defending what i've become
what have i become?

the times you doubt me, when you can't feel
the times that you've questioned is this for real?
the times you've broken, the times that you mend
the times you hate me and the times that you bend

these times are timeless...

and i'm just waiting for you to come and find me.