Little substance, and even less lucidity

There is no justice
no truth
no forgiveness
no getting around it
and no turning back

there are only subtle shadows of you and me
and splinters of light where hope breaks between

I've got a chance
a smile
a high head
and a heavy heart

but if you go left then i'll switch right
we'll be born into lives, cast off and undefined

shut up and drive

Crooked Teeth

i used to have such a lovely way with words, decietful at times
but hell i knew my way round the field
you know how to speak, not with your heart but with your mind
and i dont know how i feel about this
lately ive been illiterate and straight up foreign to you,
like we speak different languages
and when youre around my head spins and ticks and pounds
i wish my heart would follow along........
we used to laugh til we would cry
and cry til we would laugh
the lack of playfulness and color is sinking in and quite frankly
its getting to me
and i know its getting to you like a fucking cinderblock to your head
breathe in, out, slow
where did all of our innocence go?

its whats i have not can not and will not accept.
lookin back to the past my eyes get heavy and my mind overcasts.
i cant accept the shit ive pulled, the emotions ive fucked,
and the people ive driven down into dirt.
on my knees im breaking down, just know i loved you when i hit the ground.


i am running out of reasons. take this how you will.

There is a perfect road

in some place i've never been
on a day i'll never remember
a boy i'll never know
with hands i'll never hold
painted stories
seldom told

of a life i'll never know

Me & The Moon

i just realized that im noctural, for real
there should be atleast six more hours in each day
love using this site as a distraction from schoolwork

currently listening to: Something Corporate
reccomendation, and its pretty good, i love the instrumentals
keys pounding and pounding as im pounding on keys as well
piano>english paper ANYDAY

Now to the point of this,
what better day than the first of December for the first snowfall?
perfection! im giddy like a child on, well, Christmas
i really couldnt ask for more right now
maybe things are actually turning out how i want them to be,
for once..........

scheduling for semester two already?
where has time gone? probably out the window
im torn between two majors, business VS art/design
complicated? yes
worried? nah
yeahyeahyeahhhhhhhhh watching my world spin round me
LOVIN & LIVIN THE LIFE IVE BEEN GIVEN


Good Morning, whats for breakfast?

Its you, its always been you.

  You are the only exception,
                    You are the only exception,
                                                           You are the only exception,
                                  You are the only exception,
                                                                                  You are the only exception,
You are the only exception,
                                                                           You are the only exception,
            You are the only exception,
                                        You are the only exception,
                                                                      You are the only exception,
   You are the only exception,
                          You are the only exception,
                                                                            You are the only exception,
                                        You are the only exception,
    You are the only exception,
                                                        

                                                     You are the only exception.

Dramamine

It is currently 5:21 in the morning
I havent gone to bed yet,
and im perfectly content with it?
Sleeping is looking like waste to me right now
I wish i could go down with the sun itself
and come back up with the first beam of light that shines
I will learn to paint tangerine & turquoise skies some time soon

I have eight tabs opened right now,
oh, and two word documents
Yet im typing nonsense and scrambled thoughts
yeah yeah, i got this

Im crossing off the days, but not waiting for anything
Everythings picture perfect, but im out of the picture
Minutes turn to hours and those to days to months and..
To nothing

Im sick of wasting my time
alskjdfhslkjhfsjhfskjdhfksjhfksjhfd
Im over getting older
We wished and hoped and now were where weve imagined ourselves
Are you happy? I pray you are
Cause you deserve it, even when i swear you dont
We both deserve better
But... Hell.
It is what it god damn feels to be
I have been in the wierdest ass moods, though.

I kind of like them...
Good morning
to life to love to milwaukee to home to weak eyes to...you.

-5:32

Right here is my escape

I love coming here
I love that the sun comes up an hour earlier
I love the stained glass windows in your house
And i love that youre my sister

We always stay up late and make rediculously good food,
and then you send it all back to school with me in tupperware
I tell you about all the bullshit that goes on
You share your fancy shpancy liquor with me
And we laugh, and laugh...
This is the closest we've been in years,
Damn ive missed you
Thank you, Love you;
-Rachel
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Its beautiful out and today's gonna be a good day
Giant bowl of honeycomb, Tosa, East side, Third Ward, Mayfair, Rave,
BEDDDD

What a weekend

Nothing I have ever experienced before, no need to get into too much detail.
Sweet Michigan, Ive missed you. Alot.
Thats my new phrase, thanks to Caserole.

Ive spent hours tonight doing research,
on my dreams. Not going to mention them, just yet.
None of my homework has been started,
Im going to fail my Media exam tomorrow,
fuckit,seriously.

I wish i could live in my dreams
with certain someones
specific somethings
no bullshit.

Something came rushing into me just now that im so apprehensive,
just for my future and what it holds.
God, it has the ability to shine so bright i could make all of you blind.
You dont know me, will you ever?
I have so much potential, dammit,
but never ever, ever give myself any credit.

Im so excited for the rest of my life
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"Were all finding ways, to find ourselves."

Insomnia

my room is too dark, too cold, too quiet,
too... nothing
but this is my home now
really, its all ive got

went home last weekend and stayed with Audrey's family
sat around, did homework, caught up with her siblings
i missed them
i grew up with them
theyve grown up so much too, its unbelieveable

its sad that i couldnt even go back to my own house
i dont like being interrogated
churchprayingsociallifegodwhatthehellareyoudoingwithyourlife?
...........no thanks
why havent you understood that your words dont affect me?
i hear moosh when you talk
wahwahwahwahwah, like charlie brown.

mom, your phonecall about an hour ago ruined my great mood
wonderful ass friday night, huh?

i wish candles werent a fire hazard, dammit
incense too, sometimes this just sucks
i love motion city soundtrack though,
security cant fuck that up for me.

but this is my home now,
my 9 by 5 foot space

i have some re-decorating,
                   re-thinking,
                   to do.

Nice to meet you, Blogger.

I've been meaning to do this for awhile actually.
My lack of motivation is whats been motivating me lately
I'm so sick & tired of being lazy
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This will either be a waste of my time,
a waste of yours for reading it,
or what i've been desperately needing to chill out...
Enjoy.