Waaaaake up

God im just a mess of contradictions
i listen to every word im told,
but listening and following along dont mean the same thing.
but im taking it all in, every spoken sentence, drunk and sober,
im here and i think im starting to get it, grasp it.
im truely sorry for these rough spaces
and for the fact that ive been trying to patch them up
with even more mistakes

i gotta get ahold of myself,
head high and heart heavy,
keep on keepin on, i swear i will
you people have never meant more to me than you do right now,
at this very moment, all these insomniac nights,
and in all this static space.
you guys have a good idea of what im feelin lately,
but even that i cant put it into words,
dont know if ill ever be able to..

all i know is that im through with fucking so much shit up,
between myself and everyone around me,
ive done enough to cover an entire year of mistakes,
take that a squeeze it all into one short month.
fuuuuuckk. ive gotta fix my foul mouth too, maybe?
not the biggest of my worries

i hope you know im never lettin you out of my life,
youre the sister that i got to choose by will

i dont want you or anyone else to be afraid to approach me,
with anything

so lets fuck shit up, in the best way possible
take over this town, cause baby were only this young and presh once

and i love you like hell! and always will
dont ever forget that

sincerely yours.